If I only had the courage. If I wasn’t so scared, and If I wasn’t instilled with uncertainty, it’d be better. I would be able to follow through with it.
so I could stop disappointing everyone around me. And hurting them. Because that’s all I am good at, anyways. My life isn’t going according to the way that anyone planned for me, and for that I am sorry. Whether they believe it or not, I wish I could have been more of the ideal daughter. I wish I could have been that star kid. and I wish I could have proven them wrong. But unfortunately, that’s not how things go sometimes.
And maybe it is that I was meant to be the next sad story. Maybe I was meant to go.
Maybe when I’m gone, they’ll realize I wasn’t really that bad at all.